17 again.

                                                                                                      

I am not very much of a hair person, my hair are seldom kind to me.

Last year's birthday I perm my hair into big curls and just when everyone thought that I can never live without my big hair, flower clips and hair mousse, I prove them wrong.For few days I had been contemplating every time before I go to bed if I should or should not.

A bottle of my favourite shampoo per month is enough to make me break my brother’s piggy bank quietly back then :P let alone getting my hair mousse , berry hair conditioner etc...

Of course now I don’t need to break any banks as I am currently in good hands.



Walla! This is the hairstyle I had when I was 17 until I decided to keep it long just for a change. Obviously , in this weather where my scalp is constantly in a sauna and I had to wash them every end of the day just because it’s always too warm here it’s not a good idea for me to continue my battle with ‘Mr bad hair day’. One fine day while recovering from my constant cough, I make my mum take me to her hairdresser Anne. So I went ‘chop it baby’

... with that surprised face, she said ‘NO!’

Everyone at the salon were looking at me as they thought I must be insane.

I held her fingers in my right hand , looked into her eyes and said

‘I need this... just do it, please ’

Usually ,people who decided on changing their outlook name it plumping their lips with collagen or shaving their head like a particular popular singer who sang shave me baby one more time ...wants a closure, a fresh start , that symbolises our first step and to forget the past, obviously the past must be not so pleasant that was why we wanted to forget it at the first place.

Some of my memories in this few years aren’t all sweet as I had mentioned in previous post in case you have not read my nagging through that one yet... but not one minute that I have any regrets with the route that I had chosen, there were times that I buried my face into my pillow, , sat in the corner of my room‘s floor feeling devastated of how some people could be so cruel with their lies and deceived me with their sweet words I am not talking romance , it could also be business, work, friendship.

I am sure they had obtained material or emotional satisfaction for doing that to me. I am still the person I am and I don’t have any bitterness towards anyone because I am focus on my own life – my grandpa say that a thief can never live happily ever.

Being Othman’s daughter... we are both resilient and always go through our challenges in life with grace,

because I am ZA’s granddaughter I learnt to be good to others who are good to me.Stay away from people who hurt me and be honest at all time.

Because I am my mum’s daughter I chose to excel and challenge my ability despite of what is lack .

It was such a long road, now, at this junction I am making a right turn and carry on walking until I see another junction again. But for sure, this route that I take will be as bumpy or even worse but at least I am prepared.



If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.



As I said... my new year starts now , I making it better than 2009 despite some horoscope thing that had been sending me their offer through my email and said that I’ll be dead(luck-wise) next year.

Looking at my own face while Anne was cutting my hair, I realized that I look better when I smile. This is what I want a short hair that is easy to keep up with my busy work schedule.

Anne gave me back my long ponytail that she had cut off earlier, I buried it deep...

Came back into my house and drank a fruit juice from the bottle and on the label it says “refreshed’. I am indeed!

Before I go...

Congratulations to Anita Bora for her wedding .I feel so happy for her and husband..

If I don’t see you until Crimbo....

Have a wonderful Christmas!

Microblogging

 I am up to something... watch out!

GAGA over NEW SAGA

Today, is  the beginning of December which  is my unofficial New year.I start everything early and discussing  about work today  , I know January 2010 is not a month for me to start  slow  where usually I am always reflecting and  thinking about my achievement and  failure.This is the  time for me  to move  at a good phase and think positive. Check and balance,  I guess I am ok for 2009.Many things happened, bad or good they are all experiences that  taught me  to be stronger person .

Today, I  was out for a meeting and these people that I  met  were great   and professional , that is something I rarely  found  in my city.Anne and Mr Gill,Thank you very much for  being  awesome.I am honoured to be associated   with you both. :)

Today, I had a conversation with a friend in Switzerland  whom I have not met  in ages, we met in a very odd way and   hit it off straight away, , spoken to my   new best friend  who lately  have been working non stop and he is still waiting for his cooking gadget that i helped to order, I feel bad  for the late shipment , but hey sometimes people are just....not fast.

Today , I  spoke to another friend  who is creative in every way ,  we talk about  relationship  and  how men are all the same.I am amazed at the maturity of this young gentleman defending his gender(healthy debate!), and my only regret is not  trying to get to  really know him earlier, we  certainly need to catch up   for coffee

Today, work  went  great.

Today , I meet loads of new people like that funny cab driver who talks  funny and  a girl  whom I wish  could be  more positive and make changes.


I love today , it's a great way to start my New  Year ...or  should I say  my new SAGA? just for the sake of sounding more sophisticated.

Time Management

November is always a month that is filled with surprises and this year's aren't that much difference.

I know I had been really bad with updating my blog , that is because after Milan and Venice, I had a mild case of bronchitis (cough ,cough non stop).I am better now and ready to kick off again with busy schedules.

Talk about schedule of mine... the truth is I am always very busy lately, as a Corporate Chef with a World class  Italian  company who is in charge of activities in Asia, my time is limited for my hobbies and loved ones and that is why I have to say Sayonara,selamat tinggal, au revoir to my column 'Salam Chef Azura' at SAJI food magazine .A Malay language magazine by Utusan.




They always say, the 2 hardest things to say in life are
'Hello' at the beginning and 'Goodbye' at the end. That is how I feel but , With average of 4 countries to visit every month promoting Orveds sous vide cooking system( a brilliant yet accurate method of cooking), I constantly deals with Big players in my industry,businessmen and food techs and that requires a lot of time and knowledge.When I come back home I got paperworks AND a column, a book to take care of and restaurant consulting as well.To be honest, how busy I am...Let me tell you, I already know my schedule up to June 2010! SO I hope those who had sent me e mails won't be asking why I stopped writing .Thank You so much for your support of Salam Chef Azura and as a new writer nothing means more than your mails and comments.



Bigger picture coming 2010

When I was about to put my pen down, I remember about the call I received from The Editor of a reknown International Food magazine who had approached me to write after, few mails and phone calls after our first talk, I have decided to only write again next year once my schedule has calm down.I know I should not give up and put my love towards writing away.

My mum is smiling at the moment...I know mum, I just can't forget my first love and no matter where I go and what I do, I will always write, just like cooking...it is an insatiable lust of mine.

Somewhere only we know

I finally could steal some time to actually write something on here.As usual life have been very busy and last week I had made one of the biggest purchase in my life.I realized that I need to update Sayangku Azura more often...sigh... too many to do, so little time.

Many things are new such as my brothers new blanket that mum made,new revelations, new computer, new hair :).These were the things that I blogged about before,now that this is being less personal and more general, I have less to complain about life or society.I have come to realized if this world will take innocent victim like me and bring it down from time to time...by all means, do so, while I carry on doing my own thing.
History does not repeat itself but it does rhyme
And when it rhymes, will it take it with me together again?

I think I am a much wiser woman now.
Only time will tell...I guess.

Buon Giorno!

Venice -KL

On this sunny morning having Raspberry tea in a small town near Venice.I miss my mum and my brother who had celebrated his birthday yesterday.Cannot wait to be home again.
xx
Az