And after happily ever after...?

vietnamese at my favorite vietnamese in singapore

I think you got the message here.... that my life is  a story of a woman who is constantly working and travelling...for work.

I think i am pretty  unbalance here, lack of stability and always insecure when starting something new like  "relationship" for instance.


Sometimes it is  difficult when I do not know what I am looking for   in "woman loves  man


relationship",speaking to my friend earlier in one of those  "once every 3 months"  girly conversation, a friend of mine who  had just broken up with her  boyfriend told me that she hope that one day someone amazing will come along, and apparently this amazing one should be "the one", then we  jumped into money issues as we were planning for a vacation,anyway I told her that when one solved his or her financial issues , it looks like most of the problems just fade away, depending on  how much are the needs....
If you ask me,yes I feel awkward to  have found out earlier  that I had measured the quality of life by  something so superficial-materialistic but  it is true...money is important especially being an adult in this century we are being fed with credit opportunities  and being trapped in monthly installments,I am not excluded,to me money is important...BUT not everything, Sometimes ,(not necessarily pointed at me )you work so hard and  coming  back to your plush hotel  room   straight to sorting your   banking -just to smile  with your bank balance, having all your bills paid and yet still feel incomplete, tired,worn and unloved.

oh! those feelings above  are felt so often  by most chefs ! :p


But I must say ,I had transformed my heartbreak into something i regards as precious and rewarding,i know at some point i may need to retire when I am older, but I had invested  my time in an entity  that  is so challenging but yet so fulfilling, my work took me to travel, meet people, polishing my skill as a chef, my limit as a person and  my  intellect doing something that i love  and that is food.see... sometimes it's not all about the money, sometimes it's  the fiery passion...

My work  rewarded me  as equally as my time and effort put in it, even to disappointment I bounced back harder and stronger and yet  the opposite could be said about  love experience by far (again , not necessarily pointed at me)

it fools  you,disguised as a friend  and went  to stab you over and over again and yet you just stood there healing your wound saying to yourself "no way you will return through that route"...just to find yourself in the arms of love and bouquet of roses again?!!!

Oh my... we all should laugh at ourselves and most of all LOVE  ourselves even more :)

we should stop  putting our happiness in anyone's hands
we should be  are responsible for  how we feel
we should be  are kind to others
we should exercise daily
we should eat  our daily potions of fruits without fail
we should we eat our vegetables
we should bake once a week
we should spend  some portion of our salaries for our own little luxury ( yankee candles and facial mask maybe?)
we should watch movies that makes us laugh (or else... go on youtube and type  on your favorite comedian)
we should pray
we should take 10 minutes to lie down and just breathe
we should motivate ourselves
we should set aside money  for holiday and dream house fund!



in a whisper tone...I am happy , I have never been happier than today before.Life is flled with laughter and love  and although Life could be better, this is almost  close to what I perceive as perfect,then again how  do you define your kinda perfect ....?


syukur alhamdulilah, happy fasting.

My june was spent in jakarta mostly :)