Wednesday, 6 February 2008

Its a beautiful day.

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Hmmm... How can a day starts wrong? Whenever I am in England, without sounding like a stuck up Malay girl, or try to sound posh, my days are always good. I wake up smiling, I smell the roses in the garden and of course... my boyfriend lives there, so that makes everything looks perfect to my eyes.
For some, a bad day could start with bad traffic, late for work, having arguments with their spouse etc.For me these couple of days had treated me not so well name it the start or the end of it.
Its the people that I have to communicate with! see, despite working for myself at this moment I still have to encounter some silliness from people and this week I don't get the result that I want workwise.I know I should not take things so hard, but without me realizing it I feel so stressed out and alone and my knees are aching and my hair is dropping again.

On another note, I browsed through several Lupus group’s websites last week and I realized that there are plenty more to be done with Malaysian SLE Association beside the regular trip and talks, while friends in some countries are writing bills and memorandum to their parliaments , SLE Malaysia Association still have not updated their website. Talks about drugs, how to get financial support and helps, blood pressure screening, eye test, and talks with experienced rheumatologist are really some of the agendas that would be much better appreciated from a Lupus patient's point of view. I met a lady, she is A Manager at Mc Donalds and her sister died of Lupus many years ago. Her sister played hockey for the country until Lupus striked, the waiting period to be treated by a Rheumatologist is just unbelievable she complained (well, so did I) and that was what she had encountered and frustrated about.I am lucky that I get private medical treatment but It ain't cheap and just imagine for those who just can't afford it? And insurance won't cover this.


I really am hoping that they will be a cure for this autoimmune disease, a pill that can tell my immune - "Hey dude, you gone the wrong way man.., you should protect her and not attack her DUH!"
Because I am feeling freakin tired of eating my pills in the morning, I want to go back to being the old me!
I feel much better after spilling this out ...puking this all to you readers, and writing is therapeutic indeed!, I have to go back to making few more phone calls and perhaps go out and get some ice cream at my nearest Baskin after that...Somehow my grandma always say "put some sweetness in you and you'll find your sadness fade...I am going to make today MY day,I am going to laugh and sing, and no one can ruin today for me.

13 comments:

Julie said...

What a great attitude! I'd like to be that positive every day....I suspect that I don't succeed as often as I should, though....

saxyphone said...

They say waking up with a smile could change an entire day. Keep up with the positivity you are adopting! It's always a rollercoaster ride every now and then, and it plays with our feelings, but considering the obstacles you have faced so far, I am pretty sure you would pick right back up! Cheers!

saxyphone said...

They say waking up with a smile could change an entire day. Keep up with the positivity you are adopting! It's always a rollercoaster ride every now and then, and it plays with our feelings, but considering the obstacles you have faced so far, I am pretty sure you would pick right back up! Cheers!

AzAzura said...

I don't succeed as much as I would like to, too! ha, ha everything will be fine .xo

Thank you saxy! and nice to see you here1 xo

JesseTheCat said...

Being so positive is a wonderful thing! Actually I am also coming by to say thanks for the lovely comment you left on my blog at http://jesseblogs.blogspot.com
You have a great site,I bookmarked it and will be stopping by more often :)
Have a wonderful day

doudy said...

Hey thanx for the nice review on my Hollyhocks :) I am glad you like them !!! When my skills improve I'll draw your portrait in watercolors lol

I have been working very hard....

Zen Chef said...

I'm going to sing with you. La la la la... oh but wait, that might actually ruin your day. Did you see clouds appearing? Hehehe. Let's go for ice cream instead! I am a glutton, and now you are one too! ;-)
See you luv'!

AzAzura said...

Jesse,
My pleasure, I really enjoy reading yours.

Doudy,
What skill? you are very good , I like your works and think they are very pretty.

Zen Chef,
Ha,ha,ha Zen Chef ruin my day? NEVER!

Tarrel said...

hehehehe... Azzie I now really had a good laugh reading this post of yours! Once you find that tablet telling your immune system "To not attack her, but help her" please let me know... I'd like to have them too!!

You have such an amazing spirit and personality... you just absolutely bless so much ppl with your friendship. I love you to bits, and appreciate you!

A Z R A said...

do you watch smurf? the lil' blue thing with no balls ( ok i dunno with or without actually), do you know the tune? lalala lalalala lalalalaaaaaaaa.....i always sing that tune, it makes me feel better....try eh? xo

Hannan said...

azure :)
reading ur blog really open my eyes about SLE in Malaysia. Even thou I'm not very familiar about health system in malaysia, I reckon that most malaysian are still blind about what SLE is. The association should do something about it. totally agree with u.

AzAzura said...

Azra,I know what smurfs are and I even had their sticker boom back then , ha ha but I forgot the tune. :(

AzAzura said...

Hannan ,
There are plenty to be done and creating more awareness is one of it.Totally agree with you.