Monday, 10 March 2008
The happiest moments were incomplete if you weren't by my side
I miss Roger, we talk to each other many times in a day, being a women I love talking on the phone with my boyfriend and last week was the hardest because there are too many things going on and too many annoying people I have to face , that I cried .I have to be honest ,I got my blood test done last week and I can't wait for the results to be out, maybe thats why I had been in such mixed mood.I am afraid if the results are bad and not like what I hope it would be and If only Roger was here , He would tell me that it will be ok and after that we would watch silly shows on tele or hang out at new restaurants.
I got few messages telling me to be strong and take it easy , but I think some of you had got it wrong ,I can't be in the UK because of my work commitment now and Roger can't come here to be with me because of his businesss commitment too and the thing is we are both are own bossess, some might think thats easy, but really I understand Roger's situation, He have got many people working for him and many projects to finish,and lately he had been doing plenty of budgeting and paperworks and always so stressed out and that's why I was sad.I want him to be with me all the time , we had good laughs together , it had been years now , but NOT even once that I feel bored with him.His laughs and smiles are always on my mind.At this moment I would have to make do with calling him 100 times a day , having him calling me too and flashbacks on our good and occasional bad times together.I miss him so ,so much I really want to be with him ,and I hope that I will be with him forever
Everytime I waved goodbye to him at departure halls ..without him knowing it, I have to go the washroom to wipe my tears.
Ain't no sunshine when he's gone ... but I know he will bring the sunshine back ,three weeks from now and will smile looking at my blood report.