I dont really understand what is going on with me lately, is it the aspirin , my daily dose of 200mg of Hydroxychloroquine sulphate or the bread .. what am I allergic to?!!
At night I'm itching non stop , itch that occur in the nighttime and came from my deep skin .It frustrates me .
At this moment I am staying away from gluten which is a shame because I love wholemeal bread .. No ,actually I love breads ! any sort of breads I am the kind of person who can go hysterical running around in a bakery buying almost everything.Gluten free bread? no I don't think so.. I am a gluten and starchy kinda girl, loving my breads and its spreads.
Not only that I am keeping my mouth off wheat products , I stopped cheese too, because of the incident last week when I scratched myself to bleed because of my rendezvous with tomato and cheddar sandwich. I can't wait to go back to my UK specialist and get her to read my blood again.Is it Lupus ? is it the medication? Is it the food that I consumed ..The answer still upsets me because, I just don't know!!
Lists of things that I am not eating and drinking /might make me scratch/might make me ill.
Belacan- fermented shrimp paste an ingredient used in some Malay food
Shrimp - though lobsters seems to be alright for me
Soy milk -it hurt my knees
Coffee- thinning my bone
Deep fried food
Those are what I can think of at this moment , I deserve to sulk and be sad about it, I deserve to bury my face on my pillow and scream and cry .. but I am not going to do that.
At this moment I am enjoying a traditional Malay breakfast of Nasi lemak (coconut rice)sans the Rendang (a delicious Malay curry) and the anchovies and cucumber
and boiled egg. Because my Mother hailed from the north , she cooked delicious family"s recipe of Nasi lemak with herbs, I remember those days when I had a Restaurant and everybody complimented my Restaurant's Nasi lemak and how proud I was everytime I scooped it onto my bright, beautiful ,hand painted plates.
To follow my diet requirement, my mum made me some steamed broccoli with carrots to eat with my Nasi lemak .Nevermind ..., not being able to eat my favourite food is fine.. at least I am not itching or sick at this moment ,I think I can handle it not eating the food that I used to eat ,Do I sound like someone who tries to hide her sadness?
Yes I am...